House of the Lord

Last night Matt and I had the opportunity to go to the temple. We haven't been in a while actually. After what happened with losing our son, Bradley, I have been prompted over and over again to attend the temple. Well, our temple had been closed, but i couldn't escape the nagging feeling that we needed to go. So we made the arrangements. When we got there, it was so beautiful. All the Flowers were blooming and the fountain out front was running. It was so peaceful. I knew immediately that this is where we needed to be. We went inside and saw that they needed couples to do Sealings. Matt and i haven't done a sealing since our own, so we decided it would be neat to try something new. I can't go into detail but we had such an amazing experience. I had the opportunity to be a proxy for some children. The Spirit hit me so strongly when the sealer was sealing these little girls to their parents. It is such an important ordinance. I could just picture these families in heaven rejoicing because they were finally together forever. I know the Lord's time table is different then ours, but i still wonder how long these people have to wait to have their work done. It blows my mind how much more there is still to do. Matt and I have made a goal to go to the Temple once a month so that one day we will meet all those that we have done work for. I love the temple, and i am so grateful that i can go. The Gospel is true, I know it. I know my sweet little angel is mine forever. I am thankful that i was able to feel the spirits of those little girls who are with their parents now. I am especially grateful that i could share this experience with Matt, he is such a good man. I love him so much. Thank you for reading, I hope this inspires everyone, who can, to go to the temple because it will bless your life.

Day At the Zoo

Yesterday we went to the Denver Zoo. Bailey and I went with Diane,(Matt's step mom) Aiden, Rowyn (Cousins), Jill(Aunt), Sophie, and Flynn (Cousins). Diane's Grandson Zach came along too:) We saw a lot monkeys and birds. Bailey was especially happy to see the flamingos, because they are pink:) We saw the elephants and cheetas. There is also a petting zoo there with goats and a turtle. It was pretty fun. The best part for the kids was probably the carousel ride and the train ride. They loved it! Afterwards we all went to Applebees for lunch. Bailey's hair was so curly by the time we got home, because of the humidity, that I had to take pictures.

My Family

I just thought I would write a blog about how much I love my sweet husband and daughter. We have so much fun together. For the 4th we went to Matt's sisters house and had a party for her and then went and saw the best fireworks ever! And the night before we went to his other sisters and had dinner and went and saw fireworks. It is so great to have family time. Matt is always really good about going out with me, even if he doesn't really want to. He knows that I need to be social. I am grateful for Bailey. She is so energetic and fun. I took her to Bear Creek Lake on Saturday with a friend, and she had so much fun playing in the sand and water. She is just full of life. I couldn't have asked for a cooler kid:) So anyway, here are so pictures of my sweet Matty and Bailey Kaye.

A Poem For Bradley

This poem was written by Joanna Sakievich. She is in the Mt.Airy Ward and she sent this to me in a card. I thought it was beautiful. It is written from the babies point of view.

Unborn Musings

While growing inside you, I wondered so much
how would it be to smell, feel, and see
all the wonder of touch?

Everyone told me, it's not like we imagined,
the things that we spoke of, like pain, fear, and passion.
Undaunted I waited for my turn to come
I'd be the best of the best, help guide everyone home.

I sensed that your love for me equaled my own;
the hunger to be with you, was not felt alone.

But, then Heavenly father, who always knows best,
called me back to Him- Ive finished my test.

How can I describe what it's like here to cry?
Without having lived, how could I die?
Happy and safe-yet aching to feel your kiss on my face.

But God and I love you, we always will.
Happy, sad; good or bad, that love, unwavering, lingers still.

I will never grow old nor doubt truth that I'm told.
Time cannot tempt me to doubt, question, or hate you,
rather, with gratitude, I'll pray for you.
And the only pain I'll ever know, lies in sharing yours below.
Whenever you suffer, mourn, and cry, so will I.

So what ever happens, please don't be too sad.
Dearest Mommy and beloved Dad,
Someday with joy celestial we'll meet,
to hug and kiss with souls complete.

April 2008, by Joanna Sakievich

Bradley Todd Herman

This by far the hardest post i have ever written. As most of you know, Mat and i were expecting our second child. last week i didn't feel him move for a few days. I started to get worried and decided to call the Doctor. Our worst fears were confirmed when the Ultrasound technician told us she couldn't find a heartbeat. My heart exploded. I couldn't understand why this was happening, or what had happened. I had just been to the Dr. the week before and everything was perfect. As i sobbed the Dr. told me that i needed to go to the hospital and have a C-section. I can't even describe the mix of sadness, and loss i had at that moment. We checked into the hospital at 3 pm. They couldn't do the operation until 10pm, so I just had to wait. It was so awful, i don't think i have ever cried so much in my entire life. Matt and a member of the stake presidency(Brother Jefferies) gave me a blessing before i had to go. It was such a comforting and powerful blessing. I am so grateful for the priesthood in my life. When they had done the surgery, and they were stitching me up, they told us that Bradley's umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck 4 times. It was very unusual and just an accident. I was relieved to know that it was nothing that i had done , and that it wasn't something genetic, that could affect other pregnancies. he was such a beautiful boy. He was 2 lbs 1 oz and 13 in. long. He looked perfect. He had red hair and big hands and feet. infact, he looked just like Matt, with my nose. He was just what we wanted. we had time to hold him and talk to him. It was a bitter sweet moment. I was so happy to be with him and so sad the let him go. Matt loved him immediately, and was so happy that he decided to see him and say goodbye. This past week has been so serial and almost not real. We had a funeral for Bradley yesterday and it was beautiful. Matt and my Dad spoke. Matt's Dad, and Grandma gave the prayers and we had a wonderful organ medley played. It couldn't have gone better. Brother Jefferies dedicated his grave and all the kids put roses on his casket. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been here for us, for all the phone calls and flowers. Thank to my ward for so much support and love. I don't think i have ever felt so loved anywhere else. I love you guys and pray that your homes will be happy and filled with the spirit. I don't know when this pain will pas but i do know that my Heavenly Father loves me and that i have a perfect little boy waiting for me in Heaven. Thank you for all your prayers, i have felt everyone of them.

Bailey's First Hair Cut

We we finally gave in. Bailey's hair was looking a little scraggly( is that a word?) It actually looked like a "V" shape if you looked at her from behind. She had really cute ringlets down the middle bottom of her hair and i didn't want to cut them. But i did, I it is still pretty cute. I actually couldn't do it myself, so i had Matt's mom do it while i supervised. It only took a few minutes and she did really well:) I can't believe how grown up my sweet little Bailey Kaye is. This is just one of many milestones for her and i am excited to watch her go through them.

Catch up

So I am a slacker on my blog and have left out many fun and crazy things that have gone on this month...First we went to Matt's family cabin in Sweetwater CO. It was really fun since we got to be there with 2 of his sister's families and his dad and step mom.

Family pic in front of Sweetwater lake. It is so beautiful there. We love being there with family.

Matt and Bailey Cheesing for the camera:)

Bailey getting measured at the cabin. She was 3 ft 1 1/2 inches tall. She is pretty much a giant:)



The things kids get into.

Bailey rubbed ketchup all over herself the other day, and i thought it was hilarious.
Bailey got into my moisturizer and well, this isn't the worst she has done with lotion:)

Memorial Day 2008

Here is Bailey before we left to go to Matt's sister's for a BBQ. She looked so cute with her little braids:) We had a pretty good time visiting and eating. the kids did good for a while, until nap time was way over due and they wanted to kill each other. Needless to say, we left shortly after that and Bailey crashed in the car immediately. I love Holidays!

So that is it. i have more pics, but i figure this blog is long enough:) Have a great day!